She's Not Ready...

It has been about 2 weeks since this last roller coaster ride began and we are on a straight, smooth section of the course right now. Over the past couple of days, Mom has had a surge of energy, which has been great to see. Yesterday she even ate (yes, chewed) a popsicle and drank many dropperfuls of cold water! She is taking just enough meds to make her comfortable, but not to zonk her out completely.

She seems to be wrestling with the idea that she is dying. Often stubborn in life, she is likewise stubborn in dying. This is very sad to witness, yet at times, offers comic relief as we watch. At one point, she thought we were all dead, so we had to remind her she was still alive. She is obsessed with "a man" who seems to be with her, but does not speak. She also keeps trying to tell us something, but cannot seem to find the right words. This is all part of the normal process and it is very wearing for her. She is resting now...

This week has been a gift, in that the family has been here just about every night. We have had a chance to laugh together and visit with Mamaw. We wish the hospital bed was bigger, so we could crawl in with her, but instead have moved in a love seat so folks can sit with her. Lara came down from OU with Jason for the day on Wednesday, so she got to spend some time too. We send daily texts and emails to Vanessa in Florida to keep her up to date. She will be flying in when it is time. Anne, Alex along with Emily, and Corie have all had many hours with Mamaw too. It has been so great to have their support! Now that Mom has been a little more alert, Emma has had the past few days to settle into a routine with her Mamaw. Of course, she still sleeps till noon, in perfect 16 year-old form, but then she is up chattering and doing the best she can best to make her smile!

Nurse visits dropped yesterday from the twice a day watch to once a day. Today the social worker is stopping by to check on the rest of us and an aide will come to tidy things up. It is wonderful to have this support too. Many aspects of our daily lives are so taken -for -granted and yes, even jaded, so it is refreshing to witness the caring dedication of this special group of people. God bless them all!

Here's praying for a smooth weekend ahead. As always, thanks for reading and for your support.
Take care,
Sharon